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As you can see I'm doing everything else as writing my research paper. I just can't concentrate my mind on imoprtant things at the moment... although I should. I've done completely nothing in the last 6-7 hours. And I think this "nothing" will surely continue for some hours. But I really must start to examine my materials soon because the deadline is in two and a half weeks... will I make it?
Anyway, I found different stupid tests in the internet as the one in the picture or the two below...

Bookgame
1. Grab the book next to you. 2. Open it on page 123. 3. Find the fifth sentence on the page. 4. Post the next three sentences (5-7)

Result: And there was no tactical reason why Fife should hear the dispositions. Stragglers were still coming in. Stein had already resigned himself to the fact that he was not going to get much sleep to-night. (The Red Thin Line by James Jones)

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1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18 and find line 4.
"It could not have worked more perfectly if he had requested this..." (The Thin Red Line by James Jones)
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Emptiness only
3. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
I think some German comedy shows
4. Without looking, guess what time it is.
5pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
4.43pm
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Faith No More - Easy Like Sunday Morning :)
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Yesterday as I came home from the beach
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Some other stupid tests
9. What are you wearing?
Trousers and a polo shirt
10. Did you dream last night?
I've got no idea
11. When did you last laugh?
Yesterday as I talked with a stranger on the phone for an hour...and he just made me laugh
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Too many things: a map of Schleswig-Holstein, a calendar, some dnb flyers, posters, signboards etc
13. Seen anything weird lately?
No
14. What do you think of this quiz?
Waist of time
15. What is the last film you saw?
The Last Samurai (the only titel I can remember)
16. If you became a multi-millionaire over night, what would you buy?
A new house for my parents, some dogs :P and some other stuff
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I'm not the person you can see...
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics...
Poverty
19. Do you like to dance?
I used to...
20. George Bush?
I don't know him
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what would you call her?
Julija
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what would you call him?
J(u)osas
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, for some time
24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I think I won't reach those gates because I don't believe in God and stuff.

Googlism for: kristi (a sorted list, my favourites in bold)
kristi is a 24
kristi is game
kristi is whipped and licked
kristi is at it again
kristi is and was a very important part of our lives
kristi is a kind and loving girl who is missed more than any set of words could express
kristi is not in school, she likes to read
kristi is something else
kristi is 2 miles on the right
kristi is distinctly different
kristi is out
kristi is in need of a new computer monitor
kristi is very devoted to her family
kristi is ready to deliver asap
kristi is finished with her work at the lab
kristi is beginning to think about living on her own
kristi is an amazing girl
kristi is one of my best friends on and offline
kristi is a busy mother of four young children
kristi is only doing partial programs
kristi is the friendly voice on the other end of the telephone
kristi is also reading the 4th harry potter novel by jk rowling with her son
kristi is back at it again with more sensual sexual bondage
kristi is completely justified in being both upset and offended by it
kristi is on
kristi is drooling from anticipation
kristi is a skilled communicator, builds collaborative relationships with students
kristi is the lady you will talk to when you need to make an appointment
kristi is always willing to learn something new
kristi is doing also
kristi is determined to find out who douglas merson really is
kristi is buried
kristi is better known as tough

Ich hatte einen Anfall wieder...
Und ich denke, es wird öfters wieder passieren, da ich mich zur Zeit einfach nicht im Griff habe...

Today's mood is best described by "Linkin Park - Don't Stay" (hint: bold)
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe/Sometimes I need you to stay away from me/Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know/Somehow I need you to go/Don’t stay/Forget our memories/Forget our possibilities/What you were changing me into/Just give me myself back and/Don’t stay/Forget our memories/Forget our possibilities/Take all your faithlessness with you/Just give me myself back and/Don’t stay/Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well/Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself/Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know/Somehow I need to be alone/I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored/I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away/I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored/I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away/With no apologies/Don't stay/Don't stay

Another depressing evening! Morning, cycling, weather... everything was ok. Even work was ok because my students liked today's topic. But I can say that something is still missing! And I think I know what...
At the moment I'm drinking green tea and nibbling After Eight. This is the best combination in the world, I must say! And I'm listening to Xavier Naidoo's - Alle Männer Müssen Kämpfen. This song reminds me of R. and the day I understood it was over. This was about 3-4 years ago, but I still remember it as it was yesterday: I drove back home and all way long I listened to this song. That means: I listened to this song about for two hours. And thenceforward it's one of my favourte songs ever. Every time I listen to it, teardrops beginn to fall from my eyes. But the lyrics aren't actually sad:

Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, sagten sie mir
Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, das sag ich nun dir
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und ich bet, ich wäre nicht dabei
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und wenn's mich trifft, hoff ich, du verzeihst

Keiner weiss, wer die Schlacht gewinnt
Pass gut auf dich auf
und auf das ungeborene Kind
Ich weiss noch nicht, ob ich dich wiedersehe
Auch weiss ich nicht, ob ich im Kampf bestehe

Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, sagten sie mir
Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, das sag ich nun dir
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und ich bet, ich wär nicht dabei
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und wenns mich trifft, hoff ich, du verzeihst

Ich warte hier, bis du wiederkehrst
Ich glaube fest, dass du dich dem Tod verwehrst
Du wirst dein Kind in meinen Armen sehen,
denn ich glaube fest, dass wir das überstehen

Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, sagten sie mir
Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, das sag ich nun dir
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und ich bet, ich wär nicht dabei
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und wenns mich trifft, hoff ich, du verzeihst

Ich seh dich an und ich glaub daran,
der Krieg ist vorbei, irgendwann
Dann kehr ich wieder heim
zu Frau und Kind
Ich finde euch,
wenn ich auch taub und blind wäre

Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, sagten sie mir
Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, das sag ich nun dir
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und ich bet, ich wär nicht dabei
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und wenns mich trifft, hoff ich, du verzeihst

Sagten sie mir
Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, das sag ich nun dir
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und ich bet, ich wär nicht dabei
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und wenns mich trifft, hoff ich, du verzeihst

oh das sagten sie mir
Alle Männer müssen kämpfen, das sag ich nun dir
Viele Männer werden sterben,
und ich bet, ich wär nicht dabei
Viele Männer werden sterben,
Ich muss dich wiedersehen, ich muss dich wiedersehen

Der Krieg ist vorbei.